I discovered my grateful heart
is the door to all good in my life.
Everything else is just peripheral.
I can stand at this threshold and
survey all the good.
I can turn back,
or I can jump into this new world
of beauty and possibility
that shines up at me
from all angles;
It gives me tingles.
I can savor the day more amply
and allow the flow of good
to pour more abundantly
through all of my life aspects.
Yes. I confess I feel so blessed.
I had the wisest teachers help me
stay present and witness how only
the open heart manifests.
Maybe I can let go
of my ideas about
how things should be
so I can love them as they are.
This is nothing new;
I have been trying this for years,
I believe it might be possible.
I could let go
of my ideas
of right and wrong
for just a second.
I could relax
for just one second,
and stop trying to be
right about everything.
What would happen then?
Who would I be then?
What would this Universe
inside the belief
That what is, is
is what I want…?
every day experiences.
I am ready for that proof.
I’m listening to this song
over and over
that was lost
and then rekindled,
and the romantic in me
for the possibility
that after all this strange
grief and heartbreak and loss
I’ll one day regain the courage
to open my heart again
and trust in love.
Going through this transition,
everything in my life is changing,
and people (bless their hearts)
want to offer advice:
You’ll need to get a full time job, they say
Your standard of living will go down, they say
Talk to your attorney, they say
It’ll get worse before it gets better, they say
Keep your head down, they say
You’ll be so much happier after this is over, they say.
And I want to say
How do you know what you think is true?
It sounds like what they’re saying comes from fear.
I don’t take advice from frightened people.
I sit and I pray:
Thank you, angels, for making your presence known to me.
Where would you have me go?
What would you have me do?
What would you have me say, and to whom?
We would have you stay right where you are.
We would have you breathe.
We would have you tell yourself
“I love you, I forgive you, all is well.”
Now that is some advice I can take!
I find my anger is getting out of hand,
hot, explosive, uncontrollable, painful.
I stop and look inside.
Under the anger is grief.
Under the grief is fear,
the belief that something is wrong with me.
Behind the fear
there is a soft, tender spot,
the truth of my innocence.
If I can stay in touch with this innocence in me,
then I can see and honor the innocence in others.
And then real relationship is possible.
If you’re not deliberately staying open,
you are probably shutting down.
Sure, you might feel safer
hiding your light from the world,
but did you come here to live
in the darkness of your comfort bubble?
Just beyond the edges of that bubble,
your amazing potential awaits,
potential only you can fulfill.
Start by being open to the possibility
that you could stay open
and move on from there.
Take deep breaths.
If you’re feeling uncomfortable
you’ve reached the edge of your comfort zone
and now real growth can take place.
Take a stand for your open mind,
your open heart, your boundless spirit.
Live from your deepest truth,
express the soul fire that burns within you,
and as the changes come,
We can’t possibly grasp
the entire scope of our own existence
but we sure do make ourselves miserable trying.
Instead of grasping, let’s try an experiment.
See what happens
when you leave room for not knowing,
for being groundless,
for having no control.
Who do you become
in that open, mysterious place
of not knowing?